Why are perceived or real slights interpreted as rejections...

Because your opinion of me is so important to me, it cuts me to the bone when I perceive any negativity. It makes me feel unlovable if you, this wonderful, amazing person, doesn’t love me and maybe never really did. It tells me that you can see how awful of a person I really am. I always knew you were too good for me, and now you’ve realized it too. Which means you will reject me.

If there is any doubt in my mind that this slight is in fact reality, I will convince myself that it is the reality to prepare myself for the worst possible end result. I’m always going to choose the worst possible outcome because assuming that you can see the good and bad in me simultaneously and still love me makes me feel like an arrogant fool and just doesn’t make sense to me because I see so little good in myself.

I want you to love me. I want you to love me so much that you’ll forgive my always unintentionally bad behavior and never ever reject or abandon me.

Hello, I have a question about astral projection. I started to get interested in this a little while after my mum passed in april. I thought I may be able to see her and speak with her if I managed to achieve astral projection. Since this interest, every time i sleep on my back I go into sleep paralysis. However, I cant progress into astral projection because it is very scary for me as I feel like I'm suffocating when this happens. I panic and force myself to wake up. This only ever happened about once a year before this. It sometimes lasts a long time. This has happened about 3 times per week since my mum died, as mentioned on a previous post. I no longer try to go into it anymore(due to the suffocating feeling), but it still happens. I read that sleep paralysis is the pathway to astral projection. Why has this started to happen so frequently since simply taking an interest in it? Is this connected to the afterlife? I am concerned about it as I now cannot seem to stop this happening. Could it be my mum trying to communicate? Im asking due to more knowledge around this in this group.

In my disordered mind, it only takes one negative perception to signal the demise of our relationship and your inevitable rejection of me.

If I really care about you and you are really important to me, then I care about your opinion, and your judgment of me is profoundly crucial to me.

So now I believe that all you can see in me are my endless flaws. It means that you finally see me as the defective person that I really am and you will give up on me and reject me.

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Why are perceived or real slights interpreted as rejections and reality by pwBPD?

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